Growing up in Massachusetts I was hardly exposed to Japanese American culture as a child. The vast majority of my friends were Caucasian and I spent my time both in and out of school without any real cultural identity. The only real connections I had to my heritage were threefold: We would go to Utah every summer to visit my grandparents and my Hapa cousins, my parents would often cook Japanese food, and I knew basic ‘Yonsei vocabulary’ such as ‘shoyu,’ ‘hashi’ and ‘o-chawan.’ Outside these elements, it did not dawn upon me that I could identify with something beyond my surrounding environment.
It wasn’t until late elementary school that I became aware of Japanese culture. My education came, ironically, when my teacher showed a copy of ‘My Neighbor Totoro’ on the last day of 6th grade, because she didn’t have anything better for us to do. I’m pretty sure she knew little of the movie. After watching that video, however, I became aware of a culture of which I was a part.
It was in middle school where I became more aware of my JA heritage. I went to a wealthy, private school named Buckingham Browne & Nichols located in Cambridge, MA. Many of the students already knew each other from elementary school, but since I entered in the 7th grade, I already felt out of sorts with my classmates. In addition, many of the students at BB&N were very wealthy, and I remember feeling embarrassed to invite friends over to our middle-income home. Put on top of that mostly everyone was white, and I began to feel isolated.
These feelings of separation deepened in high school. I continued at BB&N through high school and many of the division in middle school continued to resonate in my later education. I felt more isolated in high school, because I felt it hard to fit in amongst my peers. As a pretty strong athlete, I became a member of the varsity soccer team my junior and senior year. As with many JAs , however, I remained dedicated to my studies, and refrained from going out much. As a result of my studies, I tended to take higher-level courses. Thus I became stuck in a situation where I was splitting my time with the athletic crowd of my high school and the more academic focused students. I found it hard to identify with either group strongly, and as a result I felt more isolated than before.
Things began to change, however, starting junior year when the third JA in my high school arrived. He was Hapa who identified strongly as JA. This student, Daniel Oshima, was very much like me. He excelled in sports and in the classroom. We both were members of the soccer team and took high-level classes. With someone who finally understood my issues and heritage, I began to warm to my time in school.
When it came to apply for college, I immediately looked to the West coast for two reasons: the weather and Asian Americans. I had come to realize, at that point, that being amongst people who shared a similar culture and heritage with me was extremely important and was worth basing my education around. So far UCLA has been the perfect match for me. A university with a challenging academic program, a large Asian American population, and a great location with its proximity to places like Little Tokyo, I have thrived at this school. Being a part of the Nikkei Student Union has made my time at UCLA educating, strengthening and fulfilling. It has truly been a home away from home and has made me feel more comfortable with myself and others than at any other point in my life.

